Yesterday was one of those days where I had a difficult time with my changing body. I have only experienced fleeting moments of this during my pregnancy (thankfully) but then I quickly channel my Hypnobabies "Daily Affirmations" that remind me that "my changing body is radiantly beautiful." I couldn't seem to get in the right headspace so I decided last night that I would try to find a picture of myself as pregnant as I am now and compare them.
I am so glad I did!
I found photos of myself at 35 weeks pregnant with Chico and realized I had the same pants and shirt in my closet! I threw them on and could already tell by the fit that I was going to pleasantly surprised!
It feels like just yesterday I snapped the pictures of myself on top - I remember this was the last set of #ootd (outfit of the day) photos I took for my old blog because not even my maternity clothes felt comfortable anymore. I remember I was headed to my goddaughter's birthday party and even on the drive over I was already dreaming of coming home and putting sweat pants back on so I could breathe again. I was so uncomfortable and couldn't imagine surviving another month of pregnancy feeling this way! I really felt handicapped.
I am currently 34 weeks so there is only 1 week separating where I was in my pregnancy on the top vs the bottom, but the way I feel today feels millions of miles away. I can get in and out of the car easily, all of my maternity clothes still fit comfortably and I am able to wear lots of non-maternity items too! I chase a toddler around all day and even though it can be exhausting, I'm pretty sure that's par for the course when you have a toddler!
I needed this yesterday - not because I am fighting weight gain while growing a tiny human or hating my changing body (trust me, I know that every single day of this pregnancy is a blessing)- but because pregnancy makes it hard to monitor if eating healthy is paying off physically by just looking in the mirror! The ways I could tell before (ex: how do my clothes fit, do I see more or less muscle tone/definition, etc.) are all moot point now!
So I will just continue to monitor my health the best way I know how - by paying attention to my energy level, my mood, etc. vs looking for physical signs of success! A good lesson for everyone I suspect - to focus more on how we feel internally vs how we look on the outside.