My son Chico was born today. I had my first contraction at 5 pm on February 5th as my husband and I were headed to the grocery store to pick up dinner. Active labor kicked in around 10 pm and I knew things were moving along. I asked my husband to call our Doula at 11 pm and we all headed to the hospital around 12 am February 5th.
We arrived at the hospital and the nurse told me I was only 1 cm dilated (which I immediately retorted - "That's nice - I'm going to push anyway."). About ten minutes later I was fully dilated, my water broke and they were pushing me into the birthing room.
I was informed there was no time for an epidural and I guess I said, "It's OK - I'll wait!" (no recollection of all the crazy stuff I said), but it was too late and they barely had time to give me an IV of fluids. I was aiming for natural child birth but once my contractions started getting intense I quickly changed my mind - unfortunately my body had other plans...
I pushed for 20 minutes.
I screamed, I couldn't keep my eyes open, I couldn't push for more than a few seconds at a time let alone to the count of 10, and I couldn't hold onto my legs or put my chin to my chest. Nothing could have prepared me for the pain I felt. It almost felt like an out of body experience.
Nothing could have prepared me for a lot of things I felt that night...
The love, awe and amazement I felt when it was over and my son was placed on my chest and he looked right at me? Whoa.
Watching my husband hold our son for the first time? Whoa.
Complete and utter disbelief that my body is capable of going through such an amazing feat and coming out the other side? Whoa.
I stayed in the hospital for less than 24 hours. I wanted to get out of there and get home where I could rest. I couldn't sleep the whole time I was there because my body was running on this crazy high of hormones, adrenaline and sheer love. I also couldn't stop staring at my baby.
Things at home are nice. We don't sleep much now around here but my husband and I are a wonderful team - between me feeding him and my husband turning into the fastest diaper changer in the world we have a great system. Our relationship is strengthened by the love we share for this beautiful baby we created as well as the admiration we feel for each other.
Thank you all for following my journey! That's all for now because Baby Chico needs to eat his dinner!